Since last post, I have continued to really evaluate myself, inside and out. What makes me happy? What makes me sad? Irritated? etc...PRODUCTIVITY! What I have come to realize is that I am at my best, my happiest, when I am being productive. I thrive off of it. it is a feeling I cannot explain. It simply fulfills me! I ride high on cloud 9 when I am in my element, being creative, creating things, taking on different roles on projects, building platforms with hopes and dreams of something great coming from them.
Where does the sadness, irritation come in? When something or someone is holding me back from being productive. Distractions, negativity and most of all when I get in my own way. Like relationships (right now in my life), I don't want to be tied down to just one thing. I have to be busy and involved with many projects at one time. More than ever, I see ultimately, I am in my own way, first, of really doing everything that I want to be doing. I have chosen, because of financial comfortableness, to allow myself to be tied down- and I am miserable.
There! I said it.
--> INSERTS PHONE CALL and A SMILE <--
Where was I, ummm...so yeah, lately, because of my work schedule, I have gotten in the habit of staying busy and getting involved with fulfilling projects. I have in the past month or so, gotten my feet wet in projects over a 100mi radius.
I think things are turning around...
I think the tone of this blog changed drastically after the phone call. Can't go into details right now, but I'm still smiling. Ahhh! Lol! Follow me on twitter @IAmOfficialMel
God is love. Love is family + friends.
Mel
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